This is a follow-up post to my previous one.
- I don't like that we're taught to contain ourselves and our true, spontaneous expression.
- It sucks. It's unhealthy. And it's just plain wrong. What's wrong with it? It causes us to hold tension inside that eats away at us. It's literally in our muscles. It's like putting a kink in the hose, which affects our nervous system and our ability to express real needs and desires we have that will literally eat away at our body until we express them or they kill us. This is probably the root of many dis-eases we see in our society today. And we are taught to hold back from such an early age that we don't even realize our nervous system has been high-jacked, and we lose all sight of what's really important to us, what we truly desire, and what our real needs are.
- I don't like that I'm told to just sit down, shut up, and do my work
- I'm tired of doing work that doesn't inspire me. And most of the work I've done my whole life doesn't inspire me. Perhaps that's why I always waited until the last minute to complete my school work, because I hated doing it so much that it was my only way of rebellion against it. There will never be a day I will just sit quietly and do what I don't want to do for too long. I'm done with that. It's time to do what I want, make money how I want, and make the impact I want to on the world.
- I don't like that I was never taught how to healthily express sadness, grief, anger, rage, loneliness, helplessness, or hopelessness.
- That's a pretty solid list of emotional states, and it's only the beginning. We're really not taught how to healthily deal with almost any emotional state. It's just not talked about much, because most of our parents, teachers, and religious/spiritual figures didn't know how to handle them also. So really, it's not these humans faults but rather stems from an ignorance larger than them. Which is why it's a huge part of my mission to eradicate ignorance from the world through love and awareness and acceptance of one another. I should be taught that I'm allowed to feel whatever I am feeling from a young age. I will make sure our next generation is taught that, because it sucks not knowing how to express yourself. I'm convinced that is what has led to most of the health challenges I've faced over the last few years, which really I've been facing my whole life and it's only been more recently that I've allowed them to bubble up to the surface to deal with them.
- I don't like that we preach things like "you can be whatever you want" and "follow your dreams until they come true", yet in practice, most people will act the opposite.
- I'm an idealist, and an extremist. But really, I'm the biggest realist there is. I think that if I am here experiencing some sort of reality, why would I live it in such a way that I'm constantly working towards creating it into the wildest dream I could ever have imagined. To live a boring life just seems....boring. It seems unrealistic for me to accept the idea that "this is just the way things are" when I see the radical evolution that has happened over even just the last 10 years, let alone the thousands and millions of years before I was born this life. It's unrealistic for me to look around at everything that is happening right now in the world and not believe that something crazy significant and huge is occurring, the likes of which we've never seen, and rate at which is becoming more and more exponential. It would be dumb and ignorant for me to believe I should keep continuing to live the way I was taught to live as a child, when my heart knows that I can be living a much bolder, more loving, more rich and vibrant life. Why not be a rockstar in business, music, athletics, and life?
- I don't like that energy, mindfulness, healing, and spirituality are still seen by a majority of people as too out there or unreal or fake.
- Do you understand how ridiculous it is that we flip a switch and lights turn on? Do you understand our unrealistic it is to believe that we could blast rockets into space and land on the moon? Do you realize how incredulous it is that these invisible waves in the air allow me to speak in a normal voice to someone on the other side of the planet? Those ideas seem more fantasy to me than the idea that I'm more than just this body and that there's some kind of divine order and magic to this universe. Physical architecture alone blows me away every day.
This mostly just feels like a rant at this point, which leads me to my final topic:
- Why was I taught to feel so guilty about expressing emotion in whatever ugly, intense, raw form it wants to come out?