I don't think I can. But I will.

I've got many big ideas, and over the past couple of years I've been shifting my life in order to make these dreams a real possibility.

On the outside, it looks as though everything has lined up for my success. Awesome.

But on the inside, I still doubt myself. Some part of me still doesn't believe I can do it. And it's stalling me.

Or rather, I'm stalling. Because really, it's just me talking to myself when I hear those doubts.

So, coming from the honest place that I don't fully believe I can accomplish what I dream about, I had a peculiar thought just a minute ago:

Why don't I just prove myself wrong?

Most of my life I've spent proving other people wrong. And that's been the fuel for my achievements.

But lately, I've not been able to draw from that source any longer. I don't feel any desire to prove others wrong. It just doesn't inspire or motivate me any more.

My thoughts now go to - why did that give me energy to act in the first place? What's the root of that inspiration?

And what comes up for me is this: I was turning their impossibility into a reality.

So then, why not do the same for myself? Why not challenge myself to prove my own fears and doubts wrong?

And why does this seem so much more difficult than proving someone else wrong?

Perhaps it's because if I failed to prove someone else wrong, I could always pick another person to prove wrong. Even if they were right, it wasn't the end of the world. I could easily keep moving.

But if I can't prove myself wrong? If I fail at fulfilling my own pure dreams?

On the surface, that looks pretty damn scary. It seems like I'd be a failure if I didn't succeed. It feels like putting all of my eggs in one basket...because it is.

But if I take a deeper look, I find some light shining through the darkness.

I see that firstly, it may not be such a bad thing to put all of my eggs in one basket - if I'm the one holding that basket. I'd rather have full control over my eggs than to diversify and leave my fate up to someone else.

Next, I notice that I'm going to die anyways. Ha. That's a funny thought, and seemingly way too obvious. So even if I spend my whole life working towards those dreams and don't quite make it, as long as I find a way to enjoy it all along the way, there is truly nothing lost. Maybe I can even continue my mission into the next plane of existence I enter. Or maybe we'll achieve immortality in my lifetime and I'll have all the time in the world to go after it. Maybe I'll even make huge discoveries that I can't even fathom right now, and the dreams I'm dreaming in this moment aren't even really what I'm after. But that direction is what's important, that movement.

Finally, what the heck else am I going to do with my life? Sit around and wish things were different or easier? Go backwards and become less and less in alignment with who I truly feel I'm destined to be (and who I already am at my core)? That sounds like a dumb move and a waste of a life.

So, really, I only have one option. Walk my path. The one I've been creating. The one that's staring me right in the face. Because if I stop for a second, I realize that I've been doing it my whole life, and now I am simply waking up to the fact that I've eliminated all other paths that I've tried and not found fulfillment.

If I have to spend the rest of my life proving my doubts wrong, I will. But I've got a feeling that the more my doubts subside, the more I walk on this path, the more momentum I'll build and the more excitement I'll experience from doing what I've always wanted to do.

Boom.

The secret to living in flow

The key to being in flow actually has nothing to do with flow itself. Flow and harmony are more natural states of being than dissonance, disorder, frustration, and suffering.

It's therefore about understanding why you're not in flow, bringing awareness to the root of your ignorance, which is most likely some belief you inherited when you were young that's not in alignment with your truth.

If you are persistent in your digging and remove those blocks, you'll find that a greater flow naturally arises in your life, bringing to you all the things that you desire that've been trying to reach you but got stuck in a pipe along the way.

Perfectionism Is Healthy

I'm a perfectionist. And I'm damn proud of it.

Perfectionism means you've got an eye for beauty, an ear for brilliance, and a desire to constantly improve upon what's in front of you. It results in being in a state of continual growth and learning, while also increasing your capacity to inspire and serve others through the sharing of new discoveries of the incredibleness of life.

What's not healthy is imperfectionism.

Imperfectionism is exemplified by guilt, shame, fear, bitterness, and a general feeling that you aren't good enough, and nothing you ever do will be good enough. This results in a constant state of procrastination, anxiety, insecurity, and suffering.

So I wonder - what is the key to living from a state of perfectionism rather than imperfectionism?

I don't know for sure, but here's the best I have right now. Perfectionism is a result of being totally open and willing to change, while imperfection arises out of a clenching or holding onto certain ideas, ideals, or habits.

Why?

Because a true perfectionist knows that perfection isn't something you just all of the sudden one day arrive at. No, rather perfection is something that can be found in every moment, something that we can simultaneously appreciate while diving deeper and deeper inside of it to find even greater beauty, brilliance, and awe.

As I embrace this mindset more and more, I'm finding it easier to let go of much of the shame, guilt, and resentment I've been harboring since I was a child and picked up on the seemingly all-to-common belief that I'll never be good enough.

I think I shall continue to explore this new mode of living and see where it leads.

So, do you think you could let go of the idea that you need to feel imperfect, incomplete, and unworthy all the time?

Are you brave enough to believe that beauty, perfection, love, joy, and peace could exist right now, in this very moment?

The choice is yours. You already know mine.

Feeling Defeated

Do you feel defeated sometimes?

I do. 

Quite a lot actually. 

And every time it feels like I won't make it out. Like my days are numbered. Like my dreams never get any closer.

It can be quite depressing at times.

And yet somehow I'm still here. Somehow, for some reason I still keep moving forward. I don't have an ounce of intention of suicide, and I don't see myself ever stopping this mission I'm on.

What mission is that? 

I honestly can't describe it get in any way that would do it justice. But I can feel it.

I'll tell you what it is when I accomplish it. Heck, even better I'll show you. 

Because that's what it's always been about anyways. Not telling someone how to live, how to love, but showing them a new possibility of existing by being a shining example. 

Soon enough the vagaries in my writing will come to an end. But the purpose of making this post was simply to tell you this: if you feel defeated, keep going, because I believe that crazy idea you have deep in your heart is real, and that by sharing it with the world you're going to bring so much joy to humanity, yourself, and all of existence.

So do it for all of us. We want what's in your heart.